I feel really really worthless these days.
Its like I can't manage to do anything.
I have a small hole in my roof that needs fixed and it won't stop raining...we have almost no money...I can't seem to draw anything that doesn't look like shit...I have an opportunity to join a band in a few months but can't seem to focus on practicing my bass...I went to the hospital a few weeks ago and they put me on prozac which has been fucking with my brain and my body ever since...they told me that I on top of being bipolar and having severe anxiety disorder I also have hypothyroidism, which they've apparently known about for awhile and didn't bother to tell me about until then...my allergies are acting up and making me feel shittier than I already do... I can't sleep properly, I can't wake up properly and spent most of yesterday in bed...my mother kept calling me yesterday but I don't know why, I don't like my mom, I don't want to talk to her, and I know the only reason why she's calling is to bitch at me for something...I might need to ask her for a loan to help with the roof repairs but I don't know how to...I'm bored but can't focus on anything, I'm tired but I don't want to spend all day in bed (even though I could)...I want to do something but can't seem to do anything and whenever I try it always just ends up being awful. I guess I just suck.